Friday, November 16, 2012


Well i wrote this post for two reasons to understand humanity better and to correct some people thought on humanity. first of all human are not an angel ,we make mistake and that doesn’t make us bad or good it make us human ,what make us bad or good is the ability to own up to our mistake. that is a point I would like to talk about and other point is that what we think is wrong is not always wrong its different from one person to another ,off course there are basic line shouldn't be cross. what make us special that we are different.
we are entitle to our opinion, so we have to learn to accept different opinion and othe point of view we dont have to act on it or even believe in it but we have to know that different opinion doesn’t make us enemy. We have to agree not to agree


Why is it that certain people will go out of their way to target those who have made mistakes along the way? What has happened to our sense of morality? Its strange when we do mistake we say that we had no choice or lost our mind for minute or life made us do it but when other do it we say they could do better . The truth is we don’t see our mistake and flaws we only see other people mistakes and flawsSome of our Basic facts of life are that
• Humanity is overrated.
• We all make mistakes and we all pay a price.
• It’s a basic truth of the human condition that everybody lies. The only variable is about what.
• Everybody does stupid things; it shouldn’t cost them everything they want in life.
 Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it’s a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from. 
“Al Franken” H.L. Wayland (1830~1898) wrote “The only people who make no mistakes are dead people”.
Kings 8:46 “When they sin against you—for there is no one who does not sin—and you become angry with them and give them over to the enemy, who takes them captive to his own land, far away or near;
 Romans 3:9 What shall we conclude then? Are we any better? Not at all! We have already made the charge that Jews and Gentiles alike are all under sin.
Romans 5:12 - Therefore, just as through one man sin entered the world, and death through sin, and thus death spread to all men, because all sinnedYou should check the link it’s beautiful and thoughtful

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

missing you

Missing you even that I have never known you .When I imagine you my heart is filled with joy, sadness , safe and fear. Joy and safe that one day I will have you with me and close to me ,sadness and fear of never finding you or losing you.
you can bring light to my life, but you can bring darkness too,it frightens me how you have all my keys. You can play me like a puppet but I still miss you .

i see you

i talk but they don't hear me,i scream but they don't blink, they look at me but they don't see me. So i ask Did  we ever really look into each other not look at each other, for me i don't think i ever did and i don't think any one ever see me too, but is that good or bad i don't  really know but i wanna be seen for my goodness and demon because if  you see me and still with me then  i have you for life time and if you didn't see me then i don't have you even if you with me. So can you see me.

the plain truth

some of you may think i have no shame or that i have alot of time on my hand‏ ‏‎ ‎or trivial but i don't care maybe i'm all that but that what i have blog for to talk freely so i will tell what i'm hoping for now. I want the happily everafter i want the fairy tale , i want to hold hand cross finger with some one .i want when i walk near him he can't wait to touch my hand and neither do i that we walk so close so our hand bump by accident, i want to lean on his shoulder when i'm sad or just to feel him near me i want some one to hug me to feel safe i wanna hold him, kiss him and told him every thing will be ok i want to make him happy ,i want someone to live for me and to live for him.i don't want some one who can't live with out me. Is that too much to ask maybe am greedy but i fed up from say am ok because i'm not ok i want to scream saying i'm not oki . I just wanna be happy that all. I need to be happy am dying inside.


Well l'm  watching this new soap opera called as the world turns . It has that amazing  gay love story between dr reid oliver and luke , so i was searching for where to download it and i stamp on site  its like hate mail for the show and and their only reason because the stars are gays . So what i'm asking is why i know it is against our religion but we do thing against their religion too so should they hate us and attack us too and i'm not talking only about gay i'm talking about black and white , right and left handed, man or women and religion .does every body have  to be the same and if not are we going to be groups of enemy . Is this really what we are aming for. In the end we are all human . And not being able to see  eye to eye to the another person doesn't make us or them wrong. It make us special . Its the different between us and any living  being


My heart is bounding very loud like it wanna escape me And it's not from happiness . Yesterday was my birthday and i  put yearly plan it's nice but am i going to go through with it i don't think so .i  know that is wrong and that am not moving from my place even so thing is moving i know that make me a loser but i try to move on but i can't see why i should .i can't find my catalyst , the thing that makes me move the thing the makes me wanna live and take life with my arm open is missing. I really hope to find it this year because live is running from me and am getting old and if  i cann't find my motive to live maybe i should let my heart escape me.


why am i here ,i always wonder what is my goal. It killing me to feel useless like leave in the rain i don't know where am i going, why am going& what i am doing ,am i free to do what i want or i just think am free and there is plan i blindly walk by it .truthly i don't know . I guess it always come to me not knowing


Don't you just hate romantic movie it has no use it's reminder about what you don't have and some time what you will never have . It's really hurt. you see all that happY ever after story but do we really have that in real life i don't think so . Some time we go through our entire life without even find the realistic version of the happy ever after . So i hate romantic movie but i still cann't stop watching it .
it's like drug it make you so happy for short time but hurt and destroy you from inside and finally kill you. even after knowing all that we cann't stop taken it.
I'm addicted that truth.

Is it enough ?

Why do we have to get marry? i really don't know for  Some, because they don't wanna be spinster, some for culture reason and some because the don't wanna die alone but is that enough reason to get married . Shouldn't be about what make me safe and happy if it's not for the greatest reason of all love .
For me is about the love and wedding , me and my other half on the beach with only 15 person, the water touching my feet in the sunset.i think any one do it for another reason its signing for life time in prison