What are you doing to me??

I keep going over our chat and smile like a fool, I must read it thousands of times .And still it never gets boring. And every time I smile like it's the first time I read it.I can't stop reading it ,it's not even romantic chat ,its ordinary chat. I'm simply addicted to you, your voice, your touch and your joke. I keep asking God to make you mine to feel the same as I do.I don't know what are you doing to me! I want to get over you and at the same time I don't want to . I'm losing my mind

Look

When he looks to me ,my heart pound,and I keep on smiling like a fool . I try to block it or act normal, but I can't. I can't stop thinking about him. I try to let it go, but I see him almost every day.  Its constant reminder in my face with his joke,  and sadness. I truly want to stop thinking about him. My heart aches when he acts cold with me, ignore me or get close to another girl. It starts to show on me. It gets me crazy thinking  he knows, but just don't feel the same or he doesn't know. I need help to get over him. Sometime I just think I will tell him,then I tell myself there is no way he doesn't know.its simple he just don't feel the same.but still I keep waiting for his message. His cold reply, hoping one day it will get better . Do you think its karma or payback for all the times I said no. The only one I want doesn't feel the same.