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When he looks to me ,my heart pound,and I keep on smiling like a fool . I try to block it or act normal, but I can't. I can't stop thinking about him. I try to let it go, but I see him almost every day.  Its constant reminder in my face with his joke,  and sadness. I truly want to stop thinking about him. My heart aches when he acts cold with me, ignore me or get close to another girl. It starts to show on me. It gets me crazy thinking  he knows, but just don't feel the same or he doesn't know. I need help to get over him. Sometime I just think I will tell him,then I tell myself there is no way he doesn't know.its simple he just don't feel the same.but still I keep waiting for his message. His cold reply, hoping one day it will get better . Do you think its karma or payback for all the times I said no. The only one I want doesn't feel the same.