love

LOVE is a flower that blooms and blossom in  the nurture of your heart, but if you don't nurture it will Wither & fall. Believing in love is like believing in God,  believing in something you can't see or describe, but still you can feel rocking every cell in your body and make you fall in the ecstasy vortex if you got it and shatter your heart if you lose it .
if that is not worth waiting for what would be.so I will wait for you because there is nothing compare to my fear of not having you in my life ,even if I have it for one instant.

Thomas Merton

I didn't write this but i couldn't help  but share it ,it so amazing that when am reading i am feeling something in my heart physical feelings i dont know what is it and i cant even describe it , but i wanna share that feeling with you.
Love is our true destiny. We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone—we find it with another. We do not discover the secret of our lives merely by study and calculation in our own isolated meditations. The meaning of our life is a secret that has to be revealed to us in love, by the one we love. [Love and Living: 25.]
The mature person realizes that life affirms itself most, not in acquiring things, but in giving time, effort, strength, intelligence, and love to others. Here a different kind of dialectic of life and death begins to appear. The living drive, the vital satisfaction, by “ending” its trend to self-satisfaction and redirecting itself to and for others, transcends itself. It “dies” insofar as the ego is concerned… Hence, life “dies” to itself in order to give itself away and thus affirms itself more maturely, more fruitfully, and more completely. We live in order to die to ourselves and give everything to others. …This “dying” to self in order to give to others is nothing more or less than a higher and more special affirmation of life. Such dying is the fruit of life, the evidence of mature and productive living. It is, in fact, the end or the goal of life. [Love and Living: p. 102]

frankly my dear i dont give a dam

I'm  a girl and from the arab world and that mean alot of should and should not alot of rules. her if a girl get harasment they blame her , they say she didnt dress right. if a girl get raped they blame her , hit her and most off the time kill her .and i lived by all of that , idont like it but i lived by it. but its geting worse , girl are not allowed to live alone, it conseder impolite , girl goes out of her house only to her husband house, and when i say hasband it mostly arange marriage  because we are not allowed to date . and if i try to just talk out this rules i would be impolite , i just has a big fight with my father because i support gay right , i cant even choose my religion or even my clothe .am 28years old and my father choose my jobs i cant go out with my friend with out his permation . i try to talk to my parent about this thing once they said am impolite ,loser, intervel and stupid for discussing  that and that i am selfish and dont care what would people say and what would islam say and that i must be sick for thinking like that , and i dont care about my sister reputation and about my mom and what will happen to them if i leave and that i dont care for them . the only thing that keep flashing to my mind the whole figh is saying "frankly my dear i dont give a dam and leave the house".

humanity

Well i wrote this post for two reasons to understand humanity better and to correct some people thought on humanity. first of all human are not an angel ,we make mistake and that doesn’t make us bad or good it make us human ,what make us bad or good is the ability to own up to our mistake. that is a point I would like to talk about and other point is that what we think is wrong is not always wrong its different from one person to another ,off course there are basic line shouldn't be cross. what make us special that we are different.
we are entitle to our opinion, so we have to learn to accept different opinion and othe point of view we dont have to act on it or even believe in it but we have to know that different opinion doesn’t make us enemy. We have to agree not to agree

Mistakes

Why is it that certain people will go out of their way to target those who have made mistakes along the way? What has happened to our sense of morality? Its strange when we do mistake we say that we had no choice or lost our mind for minute or life made us do it but when other do it we say they could do better . The truth is we don’t see our mistake and flaws we only see other people mistakes and flawsSome of our Basic facts of life are that
• Humanity is overrated.
• We all make mistakes and we all pay a price.
• It’s a basic truth of the human condition that everybody lies. The only variable is about what.
• Everybody does stupid things; it shouldn’t cost them everything they want in life.
 Mistakes are a part of being human. Appreciate your mistakes for what they are: precious life lessons that can only be learned the hard way. Unless it’s a fatal mistake, which, at least, others can learn from. 
“Al Franken” H.L. Wayland (1830~1898) wrote “The only people who make no mistakes are dead people”.
Kings 8:46 “When they sin against you—for there is no one who does not sin—and you become angry with them and give them over to the enemy, who takes them captive to his own land, far away or near;
 Romans 3:9 What shall we conclude then? Are we any better? Not at all! We have already made the charge that Jews and Gentiles alike are all under sin.
Romans 5:12 - Therefore, just as through one man sin entered the world, and death through sin, and thus death spread to all men, because all sinnedYou should check the link it’s beautiful and thoughtful

missing you

Missing you even that I have never known you .When I imagine you my heart is filled with joy, sadness , safe and fear. Joy and safe that one day I will have you with me and close to me ,sadness and fear of never finding you or losing you.
you can bring light to my life, but you can bring darkness too,it frightens me how you have all my keys. You can play me like a puppet but I still miss you .

i see you

i talk but they don't hear me,i scream but they don't blink, they look at me but they don't see me. So i ask Did  we ever really look into each other not look at each other, for me i don't think i ever did and i don't think any one ever see me too, but is that good or bad i don't  really know but i wanna be seen for my goodness and demon because if  you see me and still with me then  i have you for life time and if you didn't see me then i don't have you even if you with me. So can you see me.

the plain truth

some of you may think i have no shame or that i have alot of time on my hand‏ ‏‎ ‎or trivial but i don't care maybe i'm all that but that what i have blog for to talk freely so i will tell what i'm hoping for now. I want the happily everafter i want the fairy tale , i want to hold hand cross finger with some one .i want when i walk near him he can't wait to touch my hand and neither do i that we walk so close so our hand bump by accident, i want to lean on his shoulder when i'm sad or just to feel him near me i want some one to hug me to feel safe i wanna hold him, kiss him and told him every thing will be ok i want to make him happy ,i want someone to live for me and to live for him.i don't want some one who can't live with out me. Is that too much to ask maybe am greedy but i fed up from say am ok because i'm not ok i want to scream saying i'm not oki . I just wanna be happy that all. I need to be happy am dying inside.

human

Well l'm  watching this new soap opera called as the world turns . It has that amazing  gay love story between dr reid oliver and luke , so i was searching for where to download it and i stamp on site  its like hate mail for the show and and their only reason because the stars are gays . So what i'm asking is why i know it is against our religion but we do thing against their religion too so should they hate us and attack us too and i'm not talking only about gay i'm talking about black and white , right and left handed, man or women and religion .does every body have  to be the same and if not are we going to be groups of enemy . Is this really what we are aming for. In the end we are all human . And not being able to see  eye to eye to the another person doesn't make us or them wrong. It make us special . Its the different between us and any living  being

catalyst

My heart is bounding very loud like it wanna escape me And it's not from happiness . Yesterday was my birthday and i  put yearly plan it's nice but am i going to go through with it i don't think so .i  know that is wrong and that am not moving from my place even so thing is moving i know that make me a loser but i try to move on but i can't see why i should .i can't find my catalyst , the thing that makes me move the thing the makes me wanna live and take life with my arm open is missing. I really hope to find it this year because live is running from me and am getting old and if  i cann't find my motive to live maybe i should let my heart escape me.

Goal

why am i here ,i always wonder what is my goal. It killing me to feel useless like leave in the rain i don't know where am i going, why am going& what i am doing ,am i free to do what i want or i just think am free and there is plan i blindly walk by it .truthly i don't know . I guess it always come to me not knowing

addicted

Don't you just hate romantic movie it has no use it's reminder about what you don't have and some time what you will never have . It's really hurt. you see all that happY ever after story but do we really have that in real life i don't think so . Some time we go through our entire life without even find the realistic version of the happy ever after . So i hate romantic movie but i still cann't stop watching it .
it's like drug it make you so happy for short time but hurt and destroy you from inside and finally kill you. even after knowing all that we cann't stop taken it.
I'm addicted that truth.