its about you

Its not about the hug is about whose arms are you in
Its not about the kiss its about whose lips
Its not about the touch its about how safe and warm does your touch feel
Its all about you ,its about how you make me feel.
Its about how your arms is the only arms I want it to be around me ,how your eyes is the only eyes I want it to check me out, and about how  your hand is the only hand I want to touch me

A man

Black hole

I fell in a hole and I can't get out ,and I'm taking all my life with me .I try hard to get out, but every time I try, I fell even deeper , I can't find a way out . A lot of time I think about Surrendering but I can't.  I can't fight and I can't give up . I'm standing in between and I can't move.
I need help but I don't know how or where to get it. Sometimes  I think I don't deserve it .I did things , I'm I ashamed of myself ,feeling like I don't deserve to be happy. Some time I feel it's too late for me to be saved.
Time stop for no one , maybe it's too late for me. Even if I got saved ,it's too late to start over .
What should I do , should I lay down and die .
Or maybe it doesn't matter how many mistakes I have done or how much time went by , maybe there is still a chance to break free ,To be happy.
I truly hope there is a chance because I really need one .I need a ray of hope. I need to know that I will get out one day and it won’t be too late to be happy. Do I make any sense ????

the land of reality

A lot of time we see things that aren't true.because our mind diverts what we see to suit what we wish for or want , so we divert every truth just to keep living that dream and build that beautiful house of cards ,until one day we get hit by something so powerful that knock us out of our white cloud and we fall down to the land of reality and we start to see the ugly truth , then we ask ourselves how come we didn't see that before ,how did we fall for it? ,are we that stupid? Because it's clear as a diamond it was all lies , how were we so blind .Then we start blaming others for deceiving us & giving us false hope, but sadly again its our mind diverting the truth ,people didn't deceive us our mind did ,our mind diverts the truth so we believed their lies, And that is the truth .but we would  still prefer the lie "that others are to blame" than the truth so we can continue on living with ourselves. 

I'm yours

If only you know ,how easy for you to own me, control me and have me. All you have to do , is to make me feel that you are mine and I'm yours . And I would be like a pun in your hand. You will have me  body and soul.  You just have to say "you are mine,i want you and I won't share you" be greedy when it comes to me ,maybe for you those are just words but for me those are every thing i ever needed from you.
You already own me, you just have to claim me. For you and just you I'm as easy as it gets . If you just understand and I wish you do, because I want you and I want to be owned by  you.

Owned by you

I love you even though you are not mine, but I'm yours. You have all my keys so you control me like a puppet ,and read me like an open book.
The problem is I don't mind being owned by you ,even though I know that even though  you are everything to me I'm no one to you .every time I try to break free from you I fail  .you made me do things I never did and  feel things i never felt .you made feel so jealous that   The jealousy would eat me a life everytime I see you with another woman no matter who is she, no matter if it's reasonable or not.you control my mood ,you can light up my day in a second ,and you break me in a second ,I miss you  every second of the day ,I can't even imagine my day without you , you are my safe place  .
  It hurt me so bad that I can't say that to you .It hurts  not to be able to tell you "I love you ",it hurt when i'm sad and need to be with but i can't ask you to ,it hurts when I see you sad or troubled  and it hurt when I can't hold your hand and tell you everything will be okay.  I love you so much that it hurts, but I can't stay away from you.
even if being near you hurt me, Staying Away from you would kill me for Sure. If I'm not with you then I don't want to be. I want to be owned by you.

Lost

On my second year in Egypt ,I use to lose my way a lot because I didn't know much about the streets of Egypt, then I started to like the idea of getting lost so much that I invented a game, I use to play it with a friend ,we go somewhere and go into random street without knowing their  names and then try to find our way back .I discovered new places and we had A lot of laughs  ,it was fun . I miss it . I want to get lost I need to get lost . I need to be free of responsibility ,get rid of my shackles and be free to get lost.
Did you ever try that? You should ,if you didn't you are missing a lot.
A lot of fun,a lot of freedom ,alot of discovery ,a lot of new places. I cant describe the feeling .you had to try it to know it.
Ps
Choose nice place not gang territory

What are you doing to me??

I keep going over our chat and smile like a fool, I must read it thousands of times .And still it never gets boring. And every time I smile like it's the first time I read it.I can't stop reading it ,it's not even romantic chat ,its ordinary chat. I'm simply addicted to you, your voice, your touch and your joke. I keep asking God to make you mine to feel the same as I do.I don't know what are you doing to me! I want to get over you and at the same time I don't want to . I'm losing my mind

Look

When he looks to me ,my heart pound,and I keep on smiling like a fool . I try to block it or act normal, but I can't. I can't stop thinking about him. I try to let it go, but I see him almost every day.  Its constant reminder in my face with his joke,  and sadness. I truly want to stop thinking about him. My heart aches when he acts cold with me, ignore me or get close to another girl. It starts to show on me. It gets me crazy thinking  he knows, but just don't feel the same or he doesn't know. I need help to get over him. Sometime I just think I will tell him,then I tell myself there is no way he doesn't know.its simple he just don't feel the same.but still I keep waiting for his message. His cold reply, hoping one day it will get better . Do you think its karma or payback for all the times I said no. The only one I want doesn't feel the same.

Simply ask me

If you want to get to know me better ask me on  http://ask.fm/berryo0o

A dream

Yesterday I had a dream of you ,a dream that I would never wanna wake up from . We were fighting, then all of the sudden you hold me so tight diminishing all my power . Then I waked up with the sadness of the world weighting my heart down and went through my day trying to remember your touch ,your kiss, your hand going through my hair and your breath on my neck .Counting the minutes for the day to end wishing I never woken up and praying to god to see you in my dream tonight . I know we are not right for each other, but I can't help it you are my reason to live ,so if I can't have you for really then leave me to my dreams maybe just maybe one day it will come true..

Longing for you

Longing for romance ,long for him to hold my hand longing for his warm hugs,for the safty that cover me between his arms , for his jealousy and most of all longing for his love. so where are you .i need you to find my happiness , because with out you i'm just passing through life ,like a ghost with out you i'm lost. I need you because you are my reason for my being.

IF you dont like me just keep walking no one ask for ur opinion

I'm sensual, I like hot men ,I think girls should be sexy , I hate liars ,I love rain ,I love snow ,I love standing on edge, I love dangerous sport ,I love to be free ,I hate society Customs and tradition's chains and I love to dance on loud music with a lot of drum. If you don't like me just keep walking But if you think that make me impolite or slut then fuck off

if you want me ,woo me ,love me dont crave me

I have sexy body so when guys deal with me, they act like I'm a piece of meat not human.I'm sick of it ,I'm sick of them.I'm human ,I'm a woman  ,I need care I need love . You know I'm not frozen or cold.I'm a very sexual person.
but is it wrong to only want to be sexual with the person I love or like. Why is it that boys now a day don't bother trying to win the girl heart just try to get in her pants. Amn't I worth the trouble . I want a man to woo me ,love me not to crave me . Make me crave you  and you got me.

i'm unique

i'm unique so don't compare me to other ,it's not vanity it's just the truth no one look like me,no one love like me ,no one care like me ,no one will treat you like me,no one has my mistake, no one fail my fall and no one suffer like me . if  you compare me to others you will lose me..
you can't predict my action so don't try, don't try to analyze me or figure me out just accept me with my craziness, accept the bad and the good in me and don't try to own me just love me and i will be yours for ever .<3

I need you

i need you ,i need to through my self in your arms and through all my problem away, i need you so i can feel safe just by knowing that your arms around me hugging me and pulling me tight to your chest that i cant breath but i dont mind you are my breathe my reason to live .i need you to run your fingers through my hair to give me butterfly and make me blush , if you touch me my body tremble down , i keep wishing you want me as bad as i want you .i need you to need me,i know its selfish but i Want to be your reason to live,i want to make you happy. i need you to feel because with out you i'm numb ,i'm waiting for you do you want me as much as i want you . i need you to bring me to life. bring me to life.

love

LOVE is a flower that blooms and blossom in  the nurture of your heart, but if you don't nurture it will Wither & fall. Believing in love is like believing in God,  believing in something you can't see or describe, but still you can feel rocking every cell in your body and make you fall in the ecstasy vortex if you got it and shatter your heart if you lose it .
if that is not worth waiting for what would be.so I will wait for you because there is nothing compare to my fear of not having you in my life ,even if I have it for one instant.

Thomas Merton

I didn't write this but i couldn't help  but share it ,it so amazing that when am reading i am feeling something in my heart physical feelings i dont know what is it and i cant even describe it , but i wanna share that feeling with you.
Love is our true destiny. We do not find the meaning of life by ourselves alone—we find it with another. We do not discover the secret of our lives merely by study and calculation in our own isolated meditations. The meaning of our life is a secret that has to be revealed to us in love, by the one we love. [Love and Living: 25.]
The mature person realizes that life affirms itself most, not in acquiring things, but in giving time, effort, strength, intelligence, and love to others. Here a different kind of dialectic of life and death begins to appear. The living drive, the vital satisfaction, by “ending” its trend to self-satisfaction and redirecting itself to and for others, transcends itself. It “dies” insofar as the ego is concerned… Hence, life “dies” to itself in order to give itself away and thus affirms itself more maturely, more fruitfully, and more completely. We live in order to die to ourselves and give everything to others. …This “dying” to self in order to give to others is nothing more or less than a higher and more special affirmation of life. Such dying is the fruit of life, the evidence of mature and productive living. It is, in fact, the end or the goal of life. [Love and Living: p. 102]

frankly my dear i dont give a dam

I'm  a girl and from the arab world and that mean alot of should and should not alot of rules. her if a girl get harasment they blame her , they say she didnt dress right. if a girl get raped they blame her , hit her and most off the time kill her .and i lived by all of that , idont like it but i lived by it. but its geting worse , girl are not allowed to live alone, it conseder impolite , girl goes out of her house only to her husband house, and when i say hasband it mostly arange marriage  because we are not allowed to date . and if i try to just talk out this rules i would be impolite , i just has a big fight with my father because i support gay right , i cant even choose my religion or even my clothe .am 28years old and my father choose my jobs i cant go out with my friend with out his permation . i try to talk to my parent about this thing once they said am impolite ,loser, intervel and stupid for discussing  that and that i am selfish and dont care what would people say and what would islam say and that i must be sick for thinking like that , and i dont care about my sister reputation and about my mom and what will happen to them if i leave and that i dont care for them . the only thing that keep flashing to my mind the whole figh is saying "frankly my dear i dont give a dam and leave the house".

humanity

Well i wrote this post for two reasons to understand humanity better and to correct some people thought on humanity. first of all human are not an angel ,we make mistake and that doesn’t make us bad or good it make us human ,what make us bad or good is the ability to own up to our mistake. that is a point I would like to talk about and other point is that what we think is wrong is not always wrong its different from one person to another ,off course there are basic line shouldn't be cross. what make us special that we are different.
we are entitle to our opinion, so we have to learn to accept different opinion and othe point of view we dont have to act on it or even believe in it but we have to know that different opinion doesn’t make us enemy. We have to agree not to agree